Yes same here JRH, as I've aged , I too have become cold /cynical (probaly a defence mechanism ) dealing with many who were close to me passing .
I'm usually the first in the pub , not yesterday though, it didn't seem right to leave early .
The Canton boys did us very proud , wish the older ex Grangetown Stand boys could bolster it up more often , from thier elderly Ninian stand seats ,lol .