I am really sorry to hear you have been struggling , I hope you are able to use some of the phonelines I have listed which through , like yourself , personal experience .....have been beneficial to me in the past . I know the way secondary mental health services work through personal experience and from the fact I used to work in the area of homelessness and many people with mental health problems are homeless .
You are welcome to ring me anytime you need support and advice
Take care of yourself and don't battle on in silence
Best wishes