Listen I don't know you and you don't know me. But what I can say about you is that your are a sad, lonely inadequate individual who spends his life on message boards trying to sound tough and intimidating. Your 'cool dude' avatar is almost certainly the exact opposite of who and what you really are. It really doesn't bother me that you resort to vile personal abuse - it's only words on a keyboard, but it does reinforce my suspicion of you, and your lowly status in general. your'e sad, your'e lonely, you probably have depressing thoughts, and you compensate on here for all those failings, but real life is outside these keys - try and sort yourself out before you end up down the rabbit hole..