People who know me all think I'm a lot younger than I actually am because my body is still pretty trim and I'm relatively healthy, but what makes me feel old is the fact that I'm at the age where just the mere fact that I wake up in the morning means that I'm having a good day. Given the average ages in my family I could have more than another 10 years of going to sleep every night wondering if its the last time I'll do it. I'm not sure I can bear it. I've been so active and it has all gone.

Sorry to be morbid.